Hello and welcome to the middle of November!!!
First off I'd like to say that I'm incredibly sorry that it's taken me this long to write another entry. I was sick for most of October. But... yesterday I got it into my brain that I had to continue what I started. I've kind of put the jewelry making on the back burner for now as I've decided this Book of Shadows thing is too important so I've been spending a lot of my time working on that, going down memory lane and looking at entries with new eyes. I still have a long ways to go before it'll be materialized, but in a way it's awesome to see the evolution of it, not just from me but from so many others who unknowingly contributed to the many stacks of paper I have. I feel lucky to have lived and learned the lessons I did. With that being said...
Here is how things are going to go (or at least I'm going to try to have them go) from here on out. I am going to do my tarot spread for that day and write in here what it is and what cards I pulled and give a general summary of the reading as a whole. I'll have more detailed summaries of each individual card and what they mean to me on my Wordpress.com blog, "lulustarotjourney". If you'd like to go there and read those, you can and I'll try and put links in there for all of them so you can.
Tarot Spread for November 13th, 2016: Be Lucky on Friday the 13th"
This spread has 8 questions. If you want, you can ask me to pull a card for you for that specific question in the comments and I will pull a card for you for that day/question. These are just the cards that I pulled for these questions.
- How can I focus on staying positive all day? "Illusion--embrace the truth."
- What is my blessing? "Intuition--trust your intuition"
- Can I be adventurous? "Friendship--nurture your relationships"
- how do I give more than I take? "Go with the flow--let things happen."
- what helps me expect good things? "children--know that your children are protected"
- how do I stay open to opportunity? "peacock--raise your standards."
- what helps me see serendipity everywhere? "cheer up--live in the moment"
- why should I believe in myself? "celebration--let go and have fun"
All in all, the message of this spread is telling me that the secret to my "luck" is to embrace my truth and see things for what they are, and also to let go and have fun. I was once told by someone that in order to have more abundance in my life, I need to be generous in all aspects of my life. Not necessarily to live outside of my means, but it's okay to splurge every once in a while and pamper myself or get myself a present. If I'm generous to myself and my inner goddess, she and the universe will see to it that I get everything that I need be keep the cycle of generosity going. And, as much as I hate to admit this about myself, especially when it comes to relationships, I have always ignored all the red flags because I liked someone so much. In the past that hasn't worked at all for me, so in this new phase in my life, I'm learning that I do have a say in what happens to me and I'm in charge of how I want things to go. If something doesn't feel right, ignoring it isn't the solution. It's okay to say "this isn't working for me." But... if something is going right, it's okay to go with the flow and let things happen as opposed to try and ruin it.
You know... this weekend was very eventful for me. There were moments of surprise and I had a bunch of enlightening conversations. The thing that struck me the most was that, first from my best friend, she mentioned that if a guy is actually nice to her, she doesn't know what to do with it. We've both been going through some huge transitions this year and I've seen her get her hopes up and her dreams dashed simultaneously. But the thing that I've been noticing is that through all of it, she still remains hopeful that there's someone out there for her who will treat her well, won't play around with her emotions, and she won't give up on finding that, although when she does find something close to that she will always tell me that she doesn't know what to do with herself if someone doesn't make her chase him. And honestly, that's something I've encountered as well. After coming out of a 3 year serious relationship that ended horribly and as dramatically as it started, it took a while for me to even feel like I was ready to peak my head out and see what was out there. I've never encountered as much weirdness as I have from online dating. I'm sure it's not really all that different from regular dating, except if you don't like someone you don't HAVE to answer back and you even have the option of blocking them. But it still kinda sucks because you have to post pictures of your face so these people are all still out there somewhere... just have to pray that you won't accidentally bump into them in real life. The thing that would get to me was if I took the time to read someone's profile and they said something about wanting something "real" so I would message them thinking that they would want a real person to talk to them... apparently that's not the case. It's baffling to me to have someone complain that there's no real people out there and someone real messages them and nothing. But...
On the other end it's just as bad. Another friend told me a story of this girl who went on a date with someone and he picked her up smelling like cigarettes, looking like he had just come from another date, with someone else in the back seat he was giving a ride home to. It saddens me that more women accept this behavior instead of stomping it out right away. We had an entire discussion about the complete opposite viewpoint of men and women, why certain terrible behaviors are acceptable, why women can't just be strong enough to stand up for themselves. My hope is that for both men and women, we will evolve into something greater than ourselves. Finding the right mate won't be a matter of "luck", it'll be because we've stripped away pre-conceived notions of how we're supposed to deal with each other and we'll see into each other's souls instead of just what's on the outside.
The only thing about this reading that I don't understand is the bit about my children being protected. I'm 34 and have yet to have a child of my own and at this point I'm not sure that it's in the cards for me... which is completely fine. But... maybe in this instance, my "children" are my projects... my jewelry... my art... even my animals. Or maybe my children are things that I haven't even realized yet.
I guess that's it for now. I think on my next entry, I'll include all of the wordpress entries from this reading so you can read my feelings on each individual question. I hope that this entry finds you all well and again, if you'd like me to draw a card for a specific question for you, please let me know!!
Light and love,